"FEELING IT ALL"
by Hilary Bee

Recently someone called me in a great deal of pain, having discovered that she had been betrayed by a close family member. I sent her distant healing and spoke to her a few days later to ask her what she had experienced. She told me that at the specified time of the healing she had felt more pain. She got in touch with how she had been avoiding feeling the full depth and range of her emotions, and that the healing had allowed her to feel it all.
Her healing was coming by way of feeling it all.

Everything that we have not fully experienced remains with us, waiting for us to feel it all. We can only free ourselves from the pain of the past by being willing to experience every aspect of those emotions. Whenever the past lingers with us, it is because we have resisted feeling the totality of it. We habitually protect ourselves and manage our pain, rather than diving into it
completely. This is a pattern passed to us through the generations, it is not just a personal trait. Our pain and our sorrow have seemed too much to bear, so we have found ways to manage them and carry on.

No doubt you have done a great deal of work to free yourself from the burdens of the past. There are many techniques out there which help us lighten our loads. Personally for me, it has been a quest of many many years to be free of my baggage. I've always known it was possible, though I didn't know how. I would do whatever came to me, in order to be free. We have all experienced doing the work, finding greater freedom and yet finding another layer lurking there to be dealt with. It seems never ending.

Through personal experience I can tell you that there is hope. It is possible to be completely free of the past. We are living in these incredible times where such things are possible for all of us. Not only are they possible, they are probable. The gift of being free of the past does not even need to take a long time, nor is it necessarily difficult. It comes through grace as an answer to our calling.

The starting point is wanting to be free, having a deep yearning within to be completely free. Then admitting that you have tried everything that has come your way, and seeing that you are still not free. You can't do it on your own. When you call in divine grace to help you, everything becomes possible. When I speak of divine grace, I'm talking of a power that is greater than your individual power which can take whatever form that is meaningful to
you. It could be universal energy, light, love, god, or collective intelligence, whatever you will. Once you have connected with this grace, tell it what you want to be completely free of pain and suffering, and that you are willing to do whatever it takes to be free. Doing what it takes includes being willing to feel it all, to experience every last nuance. The path to freedom is through feeling it all. Ask for help in going there.

Freedom from the past goes hand in hand with freedom in the present. With each passing second, the present becomes the past. In order to avoid adding to past pains, we also need to be willing to experience everything fully in the present moment. That means being willing to feel everything fully in the moment. In each moment, with each happening, opening to feel it all. Not trying to do something about it, not even trying to understand it, or to figure out what to do. Just feeling each sensation, each emotion to its fullest. Being present to it, breathing with it, staying with it. Witnessing it, watching it. Seeing what's there. Feeling, feeling, feeling.

Ahhh, that's freedom. Feeling it all.